my sweet boyy came and fetched me all the way from boonlay to tanah merah after my camp yesterday afternoon.he called when i was showering at the campsite sayin that he's outside having lunch at jurong point.after we hung up,he called again in a while sayin that he's at bedok and on his way to fetch me.sweet surprise seyy..
im very terharu you know?.. =)
well,i was back yesterday but sadly i have to be back at the campsite again by 9pm tomorrow.another camp from monday till wednesday.and its primry sch kids this time.
hopefully they are good kids.VERY VERY good kids.
and i repeat again..VERY good kids.
hehe.
at times cannot tahan them you know!unless they are the cute and sweet type uh.but nvm,if they arent im just gona take it as a challenge then.
like what someone told me once before..
''everyday is a learning process for us regardless of our age."
and right now,im still learning and every step i take,i somehow hope it will make me a wiser person deep down inside.
when im working as a freelance camp instructor,there's so much that ive learned and the experience gained.
one such experience was kayaking seyy.
it sounds farkin stupid right?but hell no.not to me.
ok.here's my confession..
im afraid of the big,wide,open sea.the fear was with me since i was a lil girl.images of me drowning,some BIG BAD sharks attacking me and being eaten up by some ugly mean crocs is always in my mind.
HOHO.
serious shit uh.
so when ive started working as a freelance camp instructor,such water activity like kayaking do EXIST.my first few time when my group was having kayaking,i swear to god i didnt go down to the water.i was at shore helping my campers to launch their kayaks out to the sea.changi sea is freaking huge balls.what if i drown and my body was found at Batam or something?that would be such a disgrace.HOHO.
but then one fine camp that happened a few months back,one of my camper have no partner for kayaking cause the campers have to used the double deck kayaks.and OMG..she begged me to be her partner cause she's dying to tried kayaking.and at that moment i was hoping and dying to find a hole to jump into.i was afraid balls.
but..eventually i tried kayaking lar!
my heart was in my mouth cause the water was farking choppy cause the rain's about to come..dark clouds starts to loom in,choppy water everything..
what an experience.
after that day,ive tried kayaking and go with my camper if there's an odd number in my group.
but then quite recently like a month plus ago,ive tried going kayaking on a single kayak.no partner balls.just me,alone in the kayak,without any camper in the open sea.both open and close decks.
oh well.im lovin the experienced gained!
im still scared but the "wanting to try" attitude is burning in me seyy!
i cant simply resist. =)
oh ya..one more sensitive issue to some..but its been playing in my mind..
death been happening around in my eyes(not literally!) these days.
just a month plus ago,it was sis bf's grandad,followed by my dear cousin..
few weeks later,it was fyza's granny,then another death,then sis dear friend,and another 2 more death by two of my dear friends relatives..
just a few days ago,the boyy called me when im in camp and said the famous malay comedian Ishak Ahmad just passed away..i mean yea we are not related whatsoever but the number of death occuring around is scary shit.
im not afraid of death but what im afraid of is losing the people i love in my life.
what matter most is my loved ones.never myself.
when my sis friend gave his last breathe,my sis asked me..
'yana,do you think he knows that he's gona leave this world at the age of 22 when he was during his teen years back then?'
i did not answer her.
im just lost for words.
my dearest bloggers and friends,i'll be back soon after my camp.just keep the tags comin ya?
take care lovelies!
& obviously,the boyy will be awfully missed.
